lets get real.

I haven't posted on here for a while because I was afraid to be too negative. You see we are finally down one month of deployment... cue in confetti. But these days I'm just overwhelmed. School is so tough right now. I'm in my Senior year, taking all my tough Biology classes, test all seem to be lining up during the same weeks, the course load is something ridiculous, I'm barely treading water. On top of that I've been super slacking on crossfit, which I constantly nag myself about because I've been missing so many classes. AND to put the cherry on it, I've missed more than a couple sessions with C because I'm just SO busy! Ladies, you know the feeling... You know he understands, but you just feel so so so guilty for being too busy for your man away at deployment! So can we just get real for a minute?
Deployment sucks. I mean I made all these goals and plans, but at the end of the day that really doesn't replace seeing C. Having him here, going through the monotony of everyday. I don't mean this in a whining way... but the reality of it is that some days really are worse than the others. I promised myself to write my version of my little experience with Army life and it would be wrong to exclude these moments. I know this is only a phase, a minor bump through the rest of deployment but oh does it suck!  I finally got a chance to skype with C yesterday and I burst into the tears mid-sentence, I whined about how much I miss him and how I'd rather just him have a "regular" job. Being the sweet man that he is, he consoled me from those thousand miles away, told me it would get better and that I have to keep focusing on the light at the end of the tunnel. We are getting through this. So ladies heres to my first major deployment breakdown and being real about what we have truly signed up for.
So. All in all deployment sucks this week.
Nisha.